Well, I finally broke down and bought a cell phone for my eleventh grader. Can you believe teachers are actually utilizing these cell phones in the classrooms these days? Times are changing. It used to be that a student better not be caught with these devices, and yet, in the last couple of years, some teachers have actually thought that my child was lying when he claimed he did not have a phone to use in the classroom!
A couple of weeks ago, I received a text from my son a few hours into his school day. My first thought was, “He better not be texting during class!” Turns out, he wasn’t feeling well and wanted to be picked up. On my way to the school, I had a flashback to my years as an EDS Mama. I clearly remembered driving through the same roundabout years earlier on my way to the high school to pick up my daughter… AGAIN! I had endured years of receiving phone calls from schools, where she begged me to pick her up because she did not feel well. (Mind you, we lived through about eight years with no diagnosis, so you fight against a lot of mind games, as you can imagine; you begin to wonder if your child is really sick with anything at all or perhaps is suffering from some sort of adjustment disorder.)
So, as I drove through the same roundabout this day, I remembered all too clearly when years earlier, I was at my breaking point. Back then, on a day I will never forget, I had called my husband as I drove to the school. Out of all the frustration that was within me, I was literally shaking, sobbing, and screaming into the phone, “I can’t take it anymore! I can’t keep doing this!” I was completely worn out with trying to keep my daughter in public school while fighting a chronic illness of which we did not know the name. It had taken a toll on this Mama.
Today, I was only driving to get my son who was lucky enough to pick up the same bug going around the entire school. I knew in my mind that, logically, it would not turn into the same endless cycle I had lived years earlier. And yet for a split second, that panicky rush of emotions came flooding back to my mind and body. I met my boy in the school office and he very calmly walked out of the building and climbed into my car, only to sleep the rest of his day away, which was unusual for him. By the next morning, he was rested and energized enough to go back to school, and life went back to routine for him.
But oh, how my heart ached as I remembered how life did not go back so quickly for our daughter with EDS. And life for this EDS Mama back then was turbulent. My heart felt connected to you today, dear one. Your path is not easy and you may be at your breaking point with endless drives to school. You WILL get through this, and one day, you will look back on it and be thankful it is behind you. Until then, take a deep breath, do what you need to do, and keep telling yourself that God is with you; you are not alone. “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you”, Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV.